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transI have a bit of a problem here. I'm a habitual liar when it comes to trans things. To my parents, mostly. Here's the latest problem.
See, I had this $100 gift card I got for graduation. I spent it. On girl clothes. Stuff I actually want to wear. But, every time my parents ask me if I've spent it yet (they want me to buy new boy clothes for college with it), I tell them I haven't spent it yet. I've managed to avoid getting caught so far, but I go away in three weeks and I can't keep this up forever. At the same time, I can't talk to them about it. My mom immediately arms her guilt trip the moment she catches me in anything feminine, and my dad comes close to violence when he finds out he's been lied to. I know I dug this rut myself, but I need some way to get out. And I need some way to train myself to stop lying about this all the time. I guess part/most of the problem is I'm afraid of disappointing my parents.... but they're already disappointed I was diagnosed as trans.
So, yea.
See, I had this $100 gift card I got for graduation. I spent it. On girl clothes. Stuff I actually want to wear. But, every time my parents ask me if I've spent it yet (they want me to buy new boy clothes for college with it), I tell them I haven't spent it yet. I've managed to avoid getting caught so far, but I go away in three weeks and I can't keep this up forever. At the same time, I can't talk to them about it. My mom immediately arms her guilt trip the moment she catches me in anything feminine, and my dad comes close to violence when he finds out he's been lied to. I know I dug this rut myself, but I need some way to get out. And I need some way to train myself to stop lying about this all the time. I guess part/most of the problem is I'm afraid of disappointing my parents.... but they're already disappointed I was diagnosed as trans.
So, yea.