Hairloss, Dreams, and Spirituaism (not necessarily in that order)

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The night before last I had a dream that I feels represents my spiritual transcendence as it relates to changing my body to better match the appearance of my gender. If ya aren't interested in dream type posts, feel free to move on, otherwise please do read on. :) I have some pretty good ideas of how I feel the dream relates to me and my life right now, but to hear other people's thoughts who are going through (or have gone through) similar situations are always welcome.

The dream came to me on a night while I laid in bed seriously contemplating permanent hair removal. As a woman, I don't particularly like having to spend hours in a day every day or every other day to prevent myself from becoming a walking forest. Those of you who know me in real life know exactly what I mean. If costs can be settled it seems simply to be the freest and logical thing to.

I have investigated various hair removal systems and I have found one which I feel I can financially support which claims to be permanent with a money back guarantee. Hearing that startles me in a way that's not so different from how I was startled in the dream below. It's not that I have any love for body hair by any stretch of the imagination, its just that I'm far to chaotic to face a word like "Permanent" down the tip of my nose and not get the shivers --- in virtually any situation. It's the banality in me that says "What if...," vs. my spirit which tells me that this is simply the right thing to do.

( Spirituality )

( The Dreams They Come )

How's that for symbolism? lol 

Seeking a Neurologist in Colorado

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Anyone know of or have experience with a trans-knowledgable (or at least trans-friendly) neurologist in the Denver metro area?

My chronic migraines are getting worse, and I'm about to ask my regular doc for a referral, but would like to see someone who already has a clue about the medical aspects of my transition.

Thanks very much, and sorry for the cross-posting.

The plan

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Ok, I wrote my GF a note telling her exactly how I feel about my being trans and I was able to decide on a plan. I'm gonna order some hormones in the next week once I get my new atm card. My plan is to end up inbetween genders. I'm not sure on the midpoint because it'll just be based on where I feel is the right spot. Going out the other night reafirmed how I feel. I do enjoy switching genders. I've been in a really good mood since that night. It felt so good for me internally to let my female self out. I don't desire to transition and become female but neither do I wish to remain entirely male. I've often wished I'd be born a hermaphrodite, Being both but neither. These are my thoughts. I've recently felt my self cofidence increase by a large degree since I've been able to express my true self. I can't wait to have a body that more closly resembles who I am. my arms and legs are hairless right now and my hands look like they belong to a female, I've had others comment on how feminine my hands look. ^_^ well back to cleaning, just thought I'd share.