LJ POLL: How Would You Be Attracted To Yourself

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I am conducting a quick LJ poll about self image. 4 questions about how and whether you would be attracted to yourself in your different gendered states. It is more on a superficial level, not a psychological, definition-intensed level. I am conducting it as an exercise in examining the notion of self-image. Please have a look at it and fill it out if you wish. Thanks!

Self Image: How Would You Be Attracted To Yourself

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Concerns pumping, so I'll put this behind a ( cut... )

Elation then Depression

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So I did it. I finally went to the Doctors and told them. As I waited in the waiting room, reading an ancient copy of Mari Claire, I wondered what I would say, could I still do it. The thought had passed my mind, that I could say "I think I have the flu" or something like that.

So I sat down, my heart racing, I wanted to run away and hide, but I did it.

I now have my referrals to the gender clinic, and the great thing even though they have my male name on the top of them, it says she.

When I saw that I started to cry, I don't know why but seeing it there, on a piece of paper made it oh so real.

I was elated, I wanted to tell the world, but now waiting for appointments, hormones, and everything else, I feel flat..

-L

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hi, my name is Lorelei and i just joined. i am about to post a few questions so i can make an informed opinion and stop feeling ignorant when it comes up in conversation.

do any of you feel that there is a difference between Gender Identity Disorder and being transgendered? why or why not? or what characteristics seem to separate them?

if any of you take psychology or are therapists or what have you, or just happen to know what the mental health community thinks, is Gender Identity Disorder considered interchangable with transgendered, and does it have a negative, positive, or neutral connotation?

thanks in advance, if you answer. i'm really looking forward to any opinions, responses, and/or experiences. :)

Trying to figure things out.

[kengr]

Okay, I've been thinking about this for a while...

I don't seem to fit the "classic" TG model very well and I'm wondering who my experiences compare with others. I *definitely* don't fit the MtF TS model. :-)

First off, I never felt like I was in the "wrong body" when growing up.

But I *did* do a lot of stuff like trying to tuck my balls up inside. And as a teen I did a lot of fantasizing about being able to *change* genders. That is stuff about turning female *and back*. Either at will, or on some sort of cycle.

A few years back, I was doing some long term BDSM stuff with someone. And they had me do some crossdressing. It was intended as a sort of humiliation play, but I found I liked it. and it got me contacting the local trans group as well as building up a bit of a wardrobe.

One of the odder things to come of this are a number of incidents where I get "surprised" by seeing myself in a mirror when I didn't expect to. And sometimes I see myself as male and sometimes as female. No apparent pattern.

So... I'm just wondering if any of this sounds familiar to anyone else in the group.