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[mistwolf.livejournal.com]

As I have mentioned in the past in my journal, I have felt, since I was quite young, that I would much rather be female than male. To the extent that, about a decade ago, I was researching the steps that would be needed to make that change.

( Realised how long this is, trimmed for friends lists! )

EDIT: Forgot to tack on music and mood and stuff, and added the cut tag

New Australian TG community

[mistwolf.livejournal.com]

Just a short note to let everyone know that I have created a TG community for people living in, or dealing with, Australia and it's laws, people, health care system, and so on.

It can be reached at aussie_tg

From the first post:

Welcome to our new community! My wife, ku_she, and I looked around a long while looking for an Australia-centric LJ community, where we could ask questions relevant to the local laws and health care community. Not finding one, we decided to do the logical thing, and make our own! So welcome to our little hole in the wall community, I hope you enjoy your stay!

Musical Ditty!

[softshadow.livejournal.com]

Um...blame it on a mad muse moment?

Portia
xxx


Deep down in London Town, close to Croydon's Smoke,
Where it's really hard to tell exactly whose a bloke,
There stood a dirty flat full of things thats rude
Where lived a sexy girl named Trannyy B. Goode
Who never ever learned to act real butch so well
But she could waggle her tush just like a ringin' a bell.

Chorus:
Go! Go! Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go! Tranny B. Goode

She used to carry her lip gloss in a gunnybag,
Go hang around in clubs in her fetish drag
Old drag queens would see her wandering past
And wonder how the hell she got that tight ass
When people passed her by they would stop and say,
"You know there'll be a fun time when that t-girl play!"

Chorus
Go! Go! Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go! Tranny B. Goode


His mother told him, "I know you were born a man,
But you've changed yourself as much as a human can
Many people comin' from miles around
Askin' if you'll shake it when the sun goes down
Maybe someday your name'll be in lights,
Sayin' 'Tranny B. Goode tonight''

Chorus
Go! Go! Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go!
Go, Tranny, go! go! Tranny B. Goode

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[sekoumoja.livejournal.com]

I'm thinking of giving my mom this letter tonight... Among some other materials (Other personal letters and such). Any thoughts?

Mom,

I felt I needed to put this down on paper to be sure that I can tell you everything I need to in a fashion that makes sense. This has been one of the hardest things I’ve done. For most of my life I’ve been a “boy”. I’ve been two people. The person that was seen by others and the person I am with myself. Not always, though – There have been few times I tried to be “myself”. But as most of them ended in ridicule and teasing, I’ve learned that if I just didn’t communicate or even respond, people would just leave me alone and go away. I’m sorry for not trying to deal with this earlier, but I am now. The reason I told you was not for your advice and counsel, it was for your love and support.

About two years ago, I became depressed and anxious. For no apparent reason, though. I felt extremely uncomfortable and upset. After some time, I began having feelings that I had repressed since 7th grade. I spoke to many people online and in person about these feelings and eventually sought counseling from my psychologist and physician. After speaking with many people on the issue, I’ve finally come to grips with the reality that I am transgender. I had already believed it for many years, but I needed to be sure that I was deluding myself.

In case you are not aware of the term transgender, here is a definition: transgender: a person whose gender identity, their sense of what their public gender should be, does not agree with what those around them say it must be because of their biological sex – see diseases: gender dysphoria

The most important thing I have to say at this point is it is not your fault. There have been many attempts to understand why some people are transgender, but the one thing all the scientifically legitimate research (i.e., researchers who don't have some moral axe to grind) seem to agree on is that there is definitely some sort of genetic/chemical cause and it is not due to upbringing. If you have a hard time accepting the issue, Dr. Bruce Sachs has offered to have a session with us both to clear anything up.
The end result of this is that I plan to start living as myself, a woman, prior to having SRS (Sexual Reassignment Surgery).

This is also the reason why I’ve never had any close relationships before Natasha (Telan). It was nigh impossible for me to have any close relationships with anyone when I’m always trying to be someone I’m not – even with you. The reason I am able to be so close with Natasha now is because I have finally dealt with this. I knew about this before I’d even met her. I’ve told her how I felt, well before we’d even begun dating, and what conflicts I had so I can just be myself with her. I want you to understand that the reason I am telling you all this is not to upset you or offend you, it is an attempt to improve our relationship, because I love you and I want your support in something that will always be an uphill battle for me.
Right now I’m worried about losing friends and family over this. I am aware of all the potential implications this will have on my future life, too. But the one thing I am completely sure of is that if I don’t do this, I will simply fall back into my previous state and feel nothing.

I have somewhat adopted the name of Zelda as my female name, but this is only tentative for the time. I am also planning to dress as a girl for the majority of the time (and I have to say, I’m not as bad looking as some of the girls out there. I wish to always dress with a conservative eye and not simply to gain attention.) I love you and I don’t want to hurt you. I can only hope that you will be able to accept me and support me someday, though I could really use that now.

Love,
Zelda

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[sekoumoja.livejournal.com]

You know that letter I posted below? I gave it to my mom. She half way read it and then started in on a whole argument with me in which she slapped me several times and grabbed my jaw so hard a few times that she moved my teeth.

I hardly remember what started the argument. But I know that after she hit me the first couple of times I was mad at her and tried to egg her on to do far worse. I am very upset right now and dissappointed. I know I couldn't have expected much... but there was still hope that she was a normal human being. I never want to come back to this house again. But I don't have a choice... Then Telan is upset because she heard it all. I don't think there is anything much a person can do, over the internet especially, to comfort me for I have lost a parent tonight. My only parent... And the only blood family I have. I think I'm in a state of shock right now. ... ... I hear slapping sounds coming from her room. Evertime I hear that, she's masturbating and beating herself. Yay. She screams at me and then masturbates.

I could curse many times, I'm just going to lay down and fix my jaw.